These ears

They’re not blind

They smell the poverty around them.

They taste the hunger

And feel the need


These Eyes

Oh! These eyes have never been deaf

To that most distinct scent

Of hurt and loss

And hopelessness


My senses aren’t numb

To the world’s great lack

I possess awareness

Of what I have

And others don’t


More than anything, I long to be here:

I long with all my heart to be in all these places, but I know that more than all of that, I want to be where God wants me to be. I don’t know where I will end up, but I do know this.

I am to radiate, to reflect, to spread God’s beautiful light as He refines my heart.


Drilled into my head.

When the same verse pops up everywhere all the time, I can automatically say that God may be trying to drill something into my head.

Micah 6:8

He has showed you, O man, what is good. And what does the LORD require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God.

This verse seems to be everywhere. The way I came across it seemed, to me at least, like a coincidence. But I guess there are no coincidences with God. I basically just opened up my Bible, and there it was. Highlighted and everything. I love when stuff like this happens. It’s exciting.

The next step

In living life — turning from one chapter to the next — the next step is going to be big. The next step is to be excellent and extraordinary. This next step is exciting. The next step involves another country, new people, a different culture, and 6 months away from home. The next step is personifying love and being totally consumed with Jesus. The next step consists of some of this:

I have one word for you.

That word is India.

My plan is to leave in September and come home in April, but that’s my plan. God’s might be different. If you’d like to help me in my endeavor, you can email me your address or ask me questions at  If you do that, I can put you on my mailing list and send you all the information that you could ever ask for. Above all, just pray for me. Pray for God’s protection, God’s hand, and most importantly the fulfillment of His will.

World, here I come.

Willingly, Silently

Brought on by whips
Will give us life
Unclean with transgressions

He took upon himself
The world’s imperfection
Offered up his life
To free the undeserving
Poured out his blood
That we might follow

Sealed by His suffering
Given by a servant
Drawn out of pain

Willingly, silently, He walked to his death
Willingly, silently, He held out to the end


Baptism is an outward sign of an inward change.

We have laid our lives down — Buried them in the grave. After we have been washed with the blood of Christ, we are made new.

“I have been crucified with Christ, nevertheless I live, yet not I, but Christ liveth in me.” Galatians 2:20





The (rough draft) finished version


Dearest Akathartos,*

I am overjoyed to hear about your first assignment. This will be a season in which to learn strategy and observe the behaviors of the things ‘made in the image of God.’ This is the first and most critical of all the council with which I will present you: do not, in any way, create disarray of your current situation. The first patient is always a learning experience. You will, numerous times, experience great blunders and suffer greatly for them. So long as you are completely aware of this and you are ready to take responsibility for your stupidity, I am fairly certain you will come out nearly unscathed. Your initial assignment is one that holds great possibilities. The sons and daughters of those in ministry have abounding amounts of potential, though one miniscule indiscretion on your part and they could be eternally rooted to the path of our foe.

Let us take a minute to discuss the prospects of the circumstance in which you presently find yourself. The human to whom you have been assigned is the daughter of two ministering people. She can easily be persuaded that her parents’ ministry is strictly that of her parents. They have been given a ‘calling’ that does not pertain to her in any way and it is everything she can do to reside in their house for the next few years. However, when the opportune moment presents itself, she will be precipitously hastening, suitcases in check, for the front door of her parents’ home.

As the daughter of a minister, it has involuntarily become her job to be an example to all the children in her church and a representation of her parents. Let her consider this to insinuate that she must obtain perfection. As you and I both know, for the humans, this is an accomplishment far from accessible. The harder she tries the further into a depression she will sink. However, when employing this method, she will either come to terms that she is in fact human and needs strength that is not her own, or she will pound her weary head against a wall in great frustration.

An aspect of the ministry that fits with this quite nicely is one that we can use multi-facetedly to our advantage. This is the constant stream of people who enter and exit her life in the blink of an eye. The first way to utilize this wonderful phenomenon is to convince her that she will never really have any true friends, but only acquaintances that come and go without a word. This will render her alone and helpless. Furthermore, you are fully capable of bringing her to relinquish all acts of kindness and any desire to be in fellowship with believers. When she realizes that people are almost disposable – only a temporary asset to the whole aspect of the work in which her parents are involved – she will entirely terminate any endeavor to serve or invest in other Christians. You must, of course, be sure to guard from her mind the obvious notion that the Enemy is always ready to support her should she request assistance. In her state of abandonment, bring again to her mind that this is her parents’ work. She is cemented to ‘her daddy’s church.’ She will not be permitted to attend neighboring churches. I caution you: tread lightly with this because she might be brought to the awareness of her role in her parents’ leadership in the church.

With this we arrive at the topic of obligatory service within the church. Because she is tethered to the toils of her family unit, she must be ‘above reproach’ and perform the ‘duties of servanthood’ whether she wishes to or not.  It is imperative that you are invariably accumulating in her brain thoughts such as the following: “I am never able to do anything because of all that stupid church stuff they keep telling me I am going to do.” If you cause her to believe that she is perpetually being volunteered to do things for which she has not offered consent, she will come, gradually, to detest the very heart of a servant which her parents are so earnestly striving to instill within her. Loathing the enemy’s work leads to despising the enemy Himself.

A final thing that may prove to be successful in your venture to steer this daughter of a minister off the path to the Enemy’s home above, is to point out in her everyday life the sacrifices her guardians make for the work of the enemy but do not make for her. Also point out all the time her father spends away from the house. Whether he is out of the country instructing and serving other believers, or out of town learning to better his skills as a ‘shepherd of the flock,’ that is time that he is not spending home bettering the life of his family. Plant in her mind the idea that he would rather look after the sheep in the church family than to his family. Reason that her father and mother have put their church ministry above the ministry of the family. Let her dwell on this until it drives her to a state of madness and despair. Let her suppose that she can strive to earn their attention. She will soon focus on this aspect of life and it will consume her. Once again, the short-term friends may come into play. Continually recalling that tactic will assist you in countless endeavors in this particular case.

In everything, remember that the further you are able to generate thoughts of isolation within her you may drive her to a state of mind in which ministry is a thing which results in fathers abandoning their families, views being imposed on others against their will, and a serious deficiency of friends. There is only desolation and hardship. Under no circumstances can you overlook the fact that if you push her to her very boundaries, you quite possibly risk losing her. Transporting her to the confines of herself could result in the realization that her strength is not, and never will be enough. If this happens, always recall the Lack of Allies tactic. I cannot express sufficiently the magnitude of this tactic. As always, I wish you well.

Your dearest acquaintance,



*Akathartos is the Greek word for ‘unclean or impure’

**Klepto is the Greek word for ‘I steal’

Caution: By the end of this post, you will think I am much more strange than you already do.

I love school.

I love the writing.

I love the big books.

I love having to exercise my mind.

I love the fact that I know my teachers very well because they are the best and I have had them all for years and years. This year, I don’t have one teacher that I haven’t had before.

Out of four teachers, there is only one that I didn’t have in 5th, 6th, or 7th grade. It makes me a bit sad to think that this will be my last year at the homeschool co-op.

No more Mrs. Gorby teaching good writing habits

No more singing in Mrs. Sawyer’s choir

No more laughing at Mrs. Saville’s crazy antics

But alas, the chapter must come to a close. A new one must be drawn up.

New teachers

New antics

New perspectives

But only a renewed love of learning.

Believe it or not, this was inspired by Physics homework.

We’ve been set in motion

By the One and Only

The first

The last

The brilliant Creator


He who poured the ocean

Who set it to pulse and churn

He was

He saves

He will continue on


We’ve accepted this notion

Then moved on with our lives

We search

For more

To fill our empty hearts


Let us show devotion

To the one who gives us breath

Let us love

Let us serve

As gratitude let us live.

Things I am learning.

15 “Watch out for false prophets. They come to you in sheep’s clothing, but inwardly they are ferocious wolves. 16 By their fruit you will recognize them. Do people pick grapes from thornbushes, or figs from thistles? 17 Likewise, every good tree bears good fruit, but a bad tree bears bad fruit. 18 A good tree cannot bear bad fruit, and a bad tree cannot bear good fruit. 19Every tree that does not bear good fruit is cut down and thrown into the fire. 20 Thus, by their fruit you will recognize them.21 “Not everyone who says to me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only the one who does the will of my Father who is in heaven. 22 Many will say to me on that day, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name and in your name drive out demons and in your name perform many miracles?’ 23 Then I will tell them plainly, ‘I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers! 24 “Therefore everyone who hears these words of mine and puts them into practice is like a wise man who built his house on the rock. 25 The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house; yet it did not fall, because it had its foundation on the rock. 26 But everyone who hears these words of mine and does not put them into practice is like a foolish man who built his house on sand. 27 The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house, and it fell with a great crash.” 28 When Jesus had finished saying these things, the crowds were amazed at his teaching, 29because he taught as one who had authority, and not as their teachers of the law.

Matthew 7:15-29 (NIV)

I have been reading through Matthew and also Absolute Surrender By Andrew Murray.

Here are things that I have been learning lately. Read More

Sunday Thoughts: Carried over into Monday Edition.

Quite a few things are resulting in thoughts.

1. Yesterday’s Message on 2 Peter 1:5-9

Here is what I learned.

  • Knowledge and faith are not enough.
  • Yes, It is imperative to know our God
  • Yes, it is crucial that we trust in Him alone.
  • But… Faith and knowledge alone can be converted in to pride. We can become wise in our own eyes.
  • You know how people take vitamins to supplement their diet? There are faith supplements too.
    • Virtue
    • Self control
    • Steadfastness
    • Godliness
    • Brotherly kindness
    • Love
  • One thing that we need to remember about these things is that they take time and effort to build.
  • You don’t take vitamins one day and expect to be healthy the rest of your life… You take vitamins regularly to strengthen your body. The same is true for faith supplements. We need to continually be strengthening ourselves in the areas God has called us to.
  • We are in a battle. Soldiers do not sleep in battle.
  • We become ineffective when we take our eyes off of the saving grace of the Creator and put them on our own wants and potential hang-ups.
  • If we go around being offended by people, we are not following the example of our God. He forgave us; in living for Him, we need to forgive others.

2. A book I am reading.

This book is fantastic.

So… I have been reading this book and I have been loving it! It reviews not only the great heroes of the faith, but also the forgotten men and women who devoted their lives to serving the Lord. I really enjoy seeing the vast differences in the walks of life of these people. Some were born into poor families, some into rich families. Some into well educated religious background and others into completely pagan ‘Christianity-is-the-cool-thing-to-do’ background.

I also like the fact that every chapter of this book ends with a challenge — something that can help us mirror these men and women who truly were imitators of Christ.

In short, I highly recommend it.

Thus ends my thoughts…